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It reminds me of my trip without drugs. That was scary and felt big! I’m sure something new will come to take its place. Maybe it’s already coming to. I don’t know. Maybe it’s the place in the middle. https://t.co/91CSWGcnCr
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@AskYatharth I've had a few moments I'd tag as "a good day to die" although mostly those moments fade as I get stoked to do more stuff. It's kinda just like an aesthetic thing, like a grander version of writing a tweet that, without trying, comes to exactly 280 chars. https://t.co/zc0VXonobF
This is a really excellent take on death as just one of many limitations, not fundamentally different than only being able to be in one place at one time. Resonates a lot with how I want to think of things. I asked @uncatherio to post this publicly so I could share it! https://t.co/b0V8aAUUbr
@AskYatharth 1. yes! & fear crept in - I was all “wait I’m HAPPY, why am I thinking abt death? am I not actually happy??” 2. I came up with reasons to live that weren’t “transform my wants into reality.” weird feature of that one is its inherent link bw “I got what I want” & “ok I can die”
@AskYatharth My new foundational reason is a bit recursive, but also rings true & I'm stoked on it: Choosing "more life" over "less life" at every opportunity. Honoring my role on this side of the river - that I'm alive, rather than dead.
@AskYatharth My fave part is that this choice is always available in the present. Like Thich Nhat Hanh's quote - "At any moment, you have a choice, that either leads you closer to your spirit or further away from it."
@AskYatharth thread of my recent processing around timing of death vs. feeling satisfied with life: https://t.co/XPdbarvjpU
So option A breaks down in the logical extreme. I guess that's settled lol, I'm taking the "your life is the total of all the love and radiance you've experienced and output" view. Neat :) And the consequence is that maybe I'll die on a downswing, but that feels worth the trade.