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There are actually some very specific things that I do that reflect my self-as-assemblage, which might seem weird to some people, but I find very therapeutic https://t.co/miJjLVyzJO
@infiniturtle @backus i am pretty comfortable with the idea that i don't really have a ME who is REALLY Behind The Mask. I am just a mix, an assemblage, sometimes more this, sometimes more that, depending on context, time of day, mental state, who i'm with, what i've been up to recently...
Eg I talk to my past selves, openly. I segment selves by years for convenience https://t.co/f0qsRXX25n
āsup Visa-27, Visa-29 here! I think you were on the right track, just not as precise as you needed to be. You were circling around a ālearn from your mistakesā riff. YES AND: You canāt learn from your mistakes if you avoid facing them out of shame. Shame is the bottleneck here
I sometimes casually talk about myself as a depersonalized entity, which is sometimes how it feels https://t.co/BUtd8LCH06
I have an alt that I use to talk to myself with. I am my own biggest fan and harshest critic https://t.co/Ti1BqpPGvc
I have conversations with and comment on past selves in the marginalia of my books - so if you borrow my books you donāt just get to read the books, but my comments, and my arguments with myself, meta-comments... I am Extremely Online even when I am offline https://t.co/0kuyKhiXi5
There are some things I agree with past-Visas about, and some things I disagree with past-Visas about. I have questions and propositions for future-Visas. This is honestly my favourite network of relationships; I try to be a valuable member of the Federation of Visas https://t.co/BiyMY0NFLN
Sometimes when life gets foggy, tumultuous and dark, I navigate via the buoys and lights that past-Visas set up for me. When the skies and seas are clear, I set up buoys for future-Visas. This has helped me rehabilitate a broken relationship with myself into something beautiful https://t.co/QWeOSK0dEi
A wholesome relationship with yourself is the foundation upon which you build wholesome relationships with everybody else https://t.co/tEcY4KMOLJ
One of the coping mechanisms I have as a weirdo misfit is having conversations with my past and future selves, via writing. I'm very amused and impressed with past Depressed Visa(s) for taking selfies and posting them on IG ā he knew I would look back and reflect on them https://t.co/Kl5gdem0L4
Iām also a big fan of the idea that we are not in charge of our ideas, we are just the custodians. This relieves creative anxiety like nothing else https://t.co/j2BKKPaU0v
Knowing what's good doesn't *entitle* you to anything. You are not the artist. You are the custodian. You are the janitor picking up after the wild, reckless mind rattling in your skull. Respecting the work means treating people with kindness. It means listening, paying attention
I am the janitor https://t.co/z7shco4GD7
the more I develop as a writer, tweeter, creator, whatever ā the clearer it becomes to me that I am really mostly a spectator to my own creative process. a bit of a parent, manager, janitor, coach, etc... but the bulk of the good stuff happens beyond my conscious control
my relationship with @visakanv https://t.co/s4OxXuMTrv
Different degrees of distance from different past-selves https://t.co/28vxzjx76F
@vgr An interesting thing for me, when looking up old tweets, is observing the different levels of ādiscontinuityā I feel from my past selves. 2017-2018 Visa is basically me. 2013-2015 Visa is a totally different guy, despite also being me - and it feels natural to reply accordingly
your future self's love for you https://t.co/gOon7QBHlN
bot replacement gag https://t.co/wieVHVT4XV
a thing that i sometimes do that actually sometimes works if i seem to be confused, overwhelmed and generally in a mess i half-jokingly pretend "this Visa unit is defective. please replace", and then I visualize being a new Visa sent from the Visa Replacement Division