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as someone who went through most of life skeptical and resentful of my mom and her "supposed" love for me, my experience was true and real and hardand now that i'm able to actually inhabit her perspective, the claim that it wasnt there is basically insane https://t.co/KKced6Wl2X
thisand btw who tf do you think was taking these pictures??https://t.co/o2R0eRZDyO
there are pages upon pages of these moments in photo form, volumes upon volumes of mere snapshots of the love, barely skimming the surface of it https://t.co/rzXnbrbHe1
our parents spend more time with us, and imo shower us with more love, in the first 8 months of our life than our life partners before we get marriedhttps://t.co/yYbNZNoyZq
absolutely bonkers, where those hours are made up of countless loving moments and interactions that cameras dont capturethats before even counting extended family and community members that love us also
that's the first 8 months. theres +17 more years of child rearing to go. the scale of the love that goes into us, particularly from our parents, is overwhelming, and difficult for me to even grasp/fathom
i spent the last half hour going through just the first 4 volumes of photos (0-2 years old) while bawling my eyes out, just starting to graze the surface of the depth and enormity of the love from just my parentsi can't cry anymore, i'm cried out for the night
this feels deeply important, like i dont know what else could be more important. it's sacred. im finally cutting a layer deeper, attempting to honor the immense love that ive received https://t.co/B6tsTdL9iI
do i have problems with how my mom did things? a shit ton, i wont be doing it her way with my own kids on... many countsdid she make a mess of our relationship by projecting a bunch of her own trauma? constantlydid she love me more than i can really comprehend? absolutely