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hello weird woo people feels like im going insane. basically every moment i don’t try to keep my head together, the world feels excruciatingly good, like i want to yell at the top of my lungs normal moments feel orgasm-level good. im not meditating. this is just happening. help
@AskYatharth This happened to me for about a week last year. It doesn’t last, or didn’t for me. My advice is to enjoy it. You are coming into a richer experience of yourself. Even grief and pain felt orgasmic for me. Like agent smith when he first possessed a human body outside of matrix.
@AskYatharth It came after my awareness suddenly and rapidly expanded to include direct access to somatic idiomatic truths: I suddenly knew who I was, for the first time in my life. I had the answers to all these questions that *could not* be answered cognitively despite years of effort.
@AskYatharth *axiomatic not idiomatic Basically a kind voice spoke to me, and I entered a three day dialog with it to my great confusion. And in day three I asked it a question and was suddenly *being asked that question* by an exhausted part. My “larger self” did parts work on ME.
@AskYatharth Came with a crash of metaphysical insights and was followed a few months later by a huge spiritual awakening. I am a much bigger person than I was. I have capacity, and I am not applying effort to cognitively model the “missing” somatic experience anymore. Phew! 40 years!
@AskYatharth I am currently dealing with a degree of financial precarity and lack of stability. It makes it hard, I think, to retain that state - I get dragged back to earth too easily. Gave up weed at Cosmyk’s request, slowly rebuilding structure. Also deeply lonely. Onward+upward. /fin
"let it happen" i guess i would be doing that it if it felt safe "how would it feel safe" idk being around other crazy people it felt nice when i was pen pals with someone else whose mind is very sensitive, but she's gone now
it felt nice when i was seeing someone else whose body i knew was this sensitive. but i feel crazy now it was fine when i lived in la by the beach and had the sun and ocean and sand to ground me. but i feel crazy now
@AskYatharth have you heard Josh talk about Parvathy Baul? and her ‘devotional wail’? she’s a singer, and her entire life orientation (purpose, gift, job, whatever you wanna call it) is to feel and offer, and feel and offer. perhaps this is you too https://t.co/qYLUdcWp0m
my mythosomatics teacher says that in India, there's a cultural understanding of phenomena like "this person heard a sound - and that sound moved them so much, that they followed it for the rest of their life" I suppose something similar happened to me with bodywork