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a diary of moving to the bay https://t.co/hDxd46blPe
day 0: noticing the ghosts https://t.co/rSB0VHY9Gg https://t.co/Pd5KOv7KzX
day 1: finding the slow time https://t.co/habxFe4w5p https://t.co/mrUEh3O4cP
day 2: fragile hope https://t.co/4zqUEDssyJ https://t.co/05JgB6Tu01
day 3: every moment of silence feels important https://t.co/oUR0aptLP3 https://t.co/oBRIFhAJv4
day 3 of moving: i feel fake. this town feels too small. like when you're stuck at a snobby art party and everyone's talking about which pencil brand they use and it begins to feel like that's the whole world- but it's not you know it's not because the world whispers to you
day 4: on finding aloneness again https://t.co/FZ4zuaXpYV https://t.co/M3hkprsuIt
day 5: leisure is the defence against the dark arts https://t.co/xGYKWdw7FA https://t.co/jSa12V2vcp
day 8: you know when you forget about a problem entirely, and it's erased from your mind https://t.co/RUojsEuqjf https://t.co/I8sJRUZnYk
day 11: i feel unsafe, and it took me many words to say it https://t.co/OY0XDADvQJ https://t.co/4vQJJCS99w
day 13: feeling robotic, sound is stuck in me https://t.co/aTPkSrOPWe https://t.co/4c51P0mttv
day 14: movement https://t.co/ceUcOOYome https://t.co/W4xTh7M42y
day 23: the nutrients in this soil are different https://t.co/Lg4RZI856S https://t.co/2q1Tn0XffI
day 23 of moving to the bay area: im usually distraught here. this place doesn't feel friendly to the warm and intuitive side of me it’s a place that either exoticises or exiles intuition, pedestalises or mocks. neither of those are actually friendly behaviours https://t.co/3QD0Otd8pP
day 26: id forgotten what it was like to not feel meaning in your bones till i came here. here the meaning lives only in people's minds https://t.co/MmX7AoSOiA https://t.co/HpLzVGS9qZ
day 34: tears feel like honesty https://t.co/lYA1IcA8k3 https://t.co/3fWqHAFrp3
day 37: on what it's like to move to a big city https://t.co/8retztalgF https://t.co/BM9RQNuRcz
missed one: day 35: days of contradiction https://t.co/wYk8q1cHC0 https://t.co/zdQarSRHLD
i feel the razors edge of suffering that has been part of human societies ever since the start of time and i feel at once also-- the glorious revelry of being part of the thing: being inextricably connected to the hum of the universe and my own heart it's so so contradictory
day 52: burnout, aka the veto of my soul https://t.co/LA3OuQl3XP https://t.co/mg88HaLkbF
day 52 of moving to bay area today, i felt a complete deadening take over. my entire motivation system, grinding to a halt im so triggered im not even triggered here—just numb part of me screams, "DO YOUR JOB. DO YOUR CLASSES." the rest of me is terrified and wants to do nthng https://t.co/olBgWioIWS
on coming to forgive the hippies https://t.co/LKJr5lEwp5
day 37: on what it's like to move to a big city https://t.co/8retztalgF https://t.co/BM9RQNuRcz
missed one: day 35: days of contradiction https://t.co/wYk8q1cHC0 https://t.co/zdQarSRHLD
i feel the razors edge of suffering that has been part of human societies ever since the start of time and i feel at once also-- the glorious revelry of being part of the thing: being inextricably connected to the hum of the universe and my own heart it's so so contradictory
day 52: burnout, aka the veto of my soul https://t.co/LA3OuQl3XP https://t.co/mg88HaLkbF
day 52 of moving to bay area today, i felt a complete deadening take over. my entire motivation system, grinding to a halt im so triggered im not even triggered here—just numb part of me screams, "DO YOUR JOB. DO YOUR CLASSES." the rest of me is terrified and wants to do nthng https://t.co/olBgWioIWS
on coming to forgive the hippies https://t.co/LKJr5lEwp5
day 34: tears feel like honesty https://t.co/lYA1IcA8k3 https://t.co/3fWqHAFrp3
day 37: on what it's like to move to a big city https://t.co/8retztalgF https://t.co/BM9RQNuRcz
missed one: day 35: days of contradiction https://t.co/wYk8q1cHC0 https://t.co/zdQarSRHLD
i feel the razors edge of suffering that has been part of human societies ever since the start of time and i feel at once also-- the glorious revelry of being part of the thing: being inextricably connected to the hum of the universe and my own heart it's so so contradictory
day 52: burnout, aka the veto of my soul https://t.co/LA3OuQl3XP https://t.co/mg88HaLkbF
day 52 of moving to bay area today, i felt a complete deadening take over. my entire motivation system, grinding to a halt im so triggered im not even triggered here—just numb part of me screams, "DO YOUR JOB. DO YOUR CLASSES." the rest of me is terrified and wants to do nthng https://t.co/olBgWioIWS
on coming to forgive the hippies https://t.co/LKJr5lEwp5
day 37: on what it's like to move to a big city https://t.co/8retztalgF https://t.co/BM9RQNuRcz
missed one: day 35: days of contradiction https://t.co/wYk8q1cHC0 https://t.co/zdQarSRHLD
i feel the razors edge of suffering that has been part of human societies ever since the start of time and i feel at once also-- the glorious revelry of being part of the thing: being inextricably connected to the hum of the universe and my own heart it's so so contradictory
day 52: burnout, aka the veto of my soul https://t.co/LA3OuQl3XP https://t.co/mg88HaLkbF
day 52 of moving to bay area today, i felt a complete deadening take over. my entire motivation system, grinding to a halt im so triggered im not even triggered here—just numb part of me screams, "DO YOUR JOB. DO YOUR CLASSES." the rest of me is terrified and wants to do nthng https://t.co/olBgWioIWS
on coming to forgive the hippies https://t.co/LKJr5lEwp5