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IV. i now get to confidently say things like “even newborn babies have internal conflicts”. part of me always suspected this but now i have intimate firsthand knowledge. there’s something liberating about this https://t.co/i0ZOT3stbg
III. Witnessing lil baby *beginning to understand* things, reacting to things, following his eyes, there's something very profound about it that's hard to articulate. it's like a minor form of beholding the dawn of creation. I get to witness a world being created from scratch https://t.co/eCzPiQNHMG
somewhere along the way i think (another) part of me developed this idea: children are born innocent and pure and simple. society gets in our heads and fucks us up. until we return to pure idyllic bliss and clarity, we are fallen, lost, etc this is half-useful and half-torment
it *is* partially true and i have a whole bunch of notes and anecdotes that support the above narrative. its not wrong, it’s just incomplete https://t.co/VVbpwPKv1g
the enlightened return-to-childhood mature adult isnt free from internal conflicts, perfectly fearless and unfazed etc. they are free from *illusions* about their conflicts. they are free from the pretense of idyll. they are free to be tense without being tense about being tense
my son helped me see this and has given me the gift of release. even more tension has melted from my face when i realize its ok to not be ok. i hope my writing might be able to pass some of this gift on to others in turn https://t.co/fq9oiSwuCw
