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III. Witnessing lil baby *beginning to understand* things, reacting to things, following his eyes, there's something very profound about it that's hard to articulate. it's like a minor form of beholding the dawn of creation. I get to witness a world being created from scratch https://t.co/eCzPiQNHMG
II. I was never really an animal person growing up. I was more into books, video games, music. I liked the idea of a pet maybe, but I knew it would be a lot of responsibility, and I knew I was a pretty irresponsible kid. also i think i has this sense that… “animals are dumb”? https://t.co/XiqkNWgFkr
there's something so intimate about it. it's fair to say this is already the most intimate experience of my life. you can microdose it by hanging out with kids, and I do recommend that, and— full immersion is a different story because you get to be there as *all* of it unfolds
I've always been interested in people for as long as I can remember, and studying people has always been challenging– first because people are complicated, but also because it's kind of rude and socially inappropriate to examine people. so you have to use all sorts of proxies...
but when it's your own child, not only is it allowed, it's highly encouraged! you can look at their little faces and bodies all day and watch them process every experience. newborns sometimes smile a beatific beam of satisfaction when they fart. there's so much to learn
my child has absolutely no tension in his neck and shoulders etc yet- it's all softness, and there's something about encountering softness that inspires and begets softness in me as well. you could say i've meditated more in the last week than in any preceding month of my life
it doesn't feel appropriate to share pictures on main but i have all these lovely photos of his face in all sorts of expressions: quizzical, grumpy, wary, tormented, blissful, satisfied. again, he's not even 2 weeks old and there's all this rich complexity to discern, encourage
it's becoming increasingly clear to me that while my wife and i are going to be providing support n scaffolding for this lil guy to survive, he is going to be teaching us a lot that we have forgotten/suppressed about what it means to want and not-want