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i prefaced by mentioning how mom sometimes will give us gifts and i dont really want the gift but i know what she's showing is love. this conversation might feel like that for him, but i hoped that he would still accept it
he said that his love has always been unconditional. our conversation the previous day about the importance of work wasn't very connecting, he expressed that even if we disagree, he still loves me. he shared his ideals that love is abundant and felt, without needing words
i apologized for constantly wanting to talk feelings, with this NVC talk, about deep serious topics, going back to our family europe trip last april. https://t.co/xIiEndyxvi
there are deeply important reasons for that orientation, but i realized that it was contributing to resentment towards him ("why doesnt he want to engage with me like this"), when what i really want to be expressing to him is love
i distinctly remember visiting seattle once, us singing karaoke at home, and he sang this song. it's a song about leaving home to find success, and being too late to love her mom https://t.co/ps8nQMU6EK
the grief was palpable in the way he sang it, and the way he asked himself why his dad had to go. but the sadness/regret of not having enough opportunities to show parents love has always been palpable, every time we left taiwan growing up https://t.co/I8jeRafquN
who knows how many opportunities i'll have to share my love with my dad? i want to take every chance i have. https://t.co/oQVDbhyrbK
one of the only things i regret from my 7 year relationship is that i didn't tell her how much i loved her every single day. i don't want to make that same mistake with my parents while i still have them
we shared a tearful (for me) embracea few single tears rolled down his face during this conversation. i wonder when the last time that happened wasi was barely able to get words out through sobs at points