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i still have a part that feels “in trouble” if someone is mad at me. i remember when people were mad at me as a child, and i had to fawn at them until they were satisfied what’s helped is just.. listening. is the other person actually doing that? oh, no, what’re they doing?
there’s a curiosity that’s still alive and well. a curiosity that wants to know more about the truth of the world a curiosity that expects reasonable care towards me. and will leave if not eventually met. and a curiosity that understands why people might feel the way they do
by itself, the curiosity doesn’t fix or heal anything but it grants extra capacity to be with the experience https://t.co/hN7tyeRMAe
being alive is messy and confusing and of course i wish for people and friends to protect help me figure out what’s going on https://t.co/8aaeX6f431
@relic_radiation reminds me of this Aurora video “i often think that being human is an extreme sport … and on those days i always tell myself that: aurora, no pressure. as long as you end up in your own bed alive, you are officially a successful human being” https://t.co/ISsHEcwmGL
curiosity offers me capacity at a time when i feel overwhelm it’s offering myself a lil jacket https://t.co/apm6RQsROd
the truth is you decide what’s sustainable when i was grinding tasks every 15 minutes of the day in high school, i don’t think i had time to feel curious about my experience the machine isn’t designed to reward healthy humans
i don’t think 95% of my relationships will actually break. they’d probably get stronger but it might *feel* like they’re slipping away, in the moment. so i have to accept the emotion. the bravery is just that emotional moment of crossing the bridge https://t.co/E4zSK7wjTu
the trouble ofc is when your starting out with an insecure system, the exploratory system is already kind of down doesn’t wanna explore. doesn’t wanna leave. doesn’t wanna poke https://t.co/OgL9Yg3r3u
oops, that tweet got deleted https://t.co/JjEWipFLJt
It’s the kind of thing an attentive partner, who is so fiercely kind and just cares if you are alright would do, for they care about my experience intrinsically—the moment they offer to stop the night walk and pull out the jacket is startling,