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christine@christineist• over 3 years ago

death has a strong presence in my life

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christine@christineist• over 3 years ago
Replying to @christineist

I was shocked when my first friend died in high school but since then many other people in my life have passed and death is just never too far from my awareness

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christine@christineist• over 3 years ago
Replying to @christineist

I think this primarily plays out as an appreciation for the fact that I am alive, that I am physically present and able to perceive, and in a willingness to take risks/act on big life changes

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christine@christineist• over 3 years ago
Replying to @christineist

It actually does not make me live in fear? This might just be me but I’m like, damn that line between life and death is awfully faint. You could accidentally step over it any day. So be prepared but don’t forget to live!!

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christine@christineist• over 3 years ago
Replying to @christineist

Also when I was dealing with this I read Victor Frankl and that one Mary Oliver poem and was like omg this my second attempt at my wild and precious life after I already fucked up the first time, let’s get it right this time!!!!

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christine@christineist• over 3 years ago
Replying to @christineist

On dealing with grief, I recommend this book. But personally it was, initially, the experience of going through waves, then coming to understand that one must walk the entirety of the length the tunnel, and finally accepting death as an integral part of my understanding of life https://t.co/TDpjw86UvX

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christine@christineist• over 3 years ago

@quotidiania The year of magical thinking by Joan Didion https://t.co/RC3kEmkVfR

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christine@christineist• over 3 years ago
Replying to @christineist

music helps. Friends help. Sitting within the grieving community and holding space helps. crying alone at night helps. Journaling. Routine. Time.

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christine@christineist• over 3 years ago
Replying to @christineist

I think my proximity to death is partly due to me being really into rock climbing, and constantly hearing about accidents in the community, but I also seem to have lost a fair number to suicide and accidents

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christine@christineist• over 3 years ago
Replying to @christineist

I remember in Into Thin Air krakauer talks about shock at the first frozen body and then the next are just like, a small deadening inside. I think that varies with how close you are to the person but I definitely feel a growing sense of numbness with each phone call

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christine@christineist• over 3 years ago
Replying to @christineist

anyways, I feel like this awareness of death is quite good for me. It makes me go for things, be a little hedonistic, and not wallow too much. I celebrate a sunny day & buy myself ice cream, I laugh at my melodramas, and if I want to change something in life I don’t wait too long

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christine@christineist• over 3 years ago
Replying to @christineist

curious how other people feel their attitudes towards life has changed by the presence of death and how it plays out in their daily lives

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