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still integrating the idea that the life other people are trying to live is not the one i want https://t.co/Yiybx9mUdg
“then what am i trying to live?” “well, that’s sort of up to you” [pikachu.jpg] https://t.co/10v0KvVcIq
you mean i just get to live my life referenceless? yes, sorta. if you want [pikachu.jpg] https://t.co/HFAZ9j2IK8
it feels like getting “sucked out” of this “perception of other people” https://t.co/IXMgoTtDNx
like i don’t have to live in their inside anymore https://t.co/XXpKrOYzLt
because i can never really totally live there. it’s impossible to fully exist over there as a human being https://t.co/GP32egIqtQ
“It’s time to stop performing, so he tries. He tries, but outside he just finds a sound stage where there's nothing but more lights and another audience. “Outside is gone, it's all inside.” And you can't get back inside yourself. https://t.co/fRyOAd1Dwo https://t.co/QNVBr38imO
then what do i rely on?https://t.co/qEkGMWJN3q
You may not know what a Test entails, but you know you want to "do well" on it. You do this my Hunting For The Rubric and figuring out how to maximize your score. some results: crippling indecision when no rubric is present, and ignoring anything that won't be on the Test
myself, i guess https://t.co/67CItynUzI
“what the fuck gives me the right to disregard other people’s perceptions and just sorta live by my own?” idk, if i can stay solvent in my own reality and survive, i guess https://t.co/rBmz257D1V
my feelings are the only thing making life real to me right now every moment, every little step, there is a sense of reality that comes from within me i have the thing that i thought was only in other people. i have the right to create a reality, as long as i can stay solvent
if i can stay solvent in my own reality, i have the right to begin creating a reality oriented around me; where i am the home can bridge across to other islands of people, who still have their own entire worlds https://t.co/ZMsWPwBvig