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told @keta_mean_ today that basically the only way i survive now given how much contact, snuggles, appreciation, presence i need is by living in a world that is magical where objects, fields, skies speak to me https://t.co/YCBOenz9P5
it feels a bit of a joke, but it feels essentially true there was a sense just now of getting caught “scrolling” twitter for 30m and needing that sense of contact to not be broken a sense of contact that can be provided by the objects around me
my mind is fast and goes many places and what does my body hitch on to? can contract to the tiny digital space in front of me and live there but increasingly—can also occupy the entire room, indeed, the entire space, and feel in contact there
contracted awareness vs expanded awareness everything feels so viscerally different. with expanded awareness, my body is but one thing in a whole space. i almost feel it from the outside, along with the inside with contracted awareness, im all inside my body and it sucks
there is no sense of how i look from the outside https://t.co/XIza1uHY2R
[update] even without devices, without objects, i seem to go from one contracted awareness to another went from closet to look for pants to mirror to check for hair very contracted throughout, can’t remember what happened in middle, grim set face
. . . versus moving through objects. feeling greeted by rooms. feeling relations talking with them. it just makes me smile. i remember the Sense of being remembering the process and the objects behind me expanded and relational
something something objects and joint attention https://t.co/BGGJ64nMxo
@AskYatharth @keta_mean_ I mean for 1. it was plain ‘ol effective for my mental health 2. it’s a whole spirituality that is the best fit for me of all I’ve found https://t.co/2HldiJLcb3
I suspect human relationships – whether friends, romantic, family, community – were never meant to meet alllllll our attachment and belonging needs. rather, that we’re hardwired to meet a good chunk of them from relation with land and place and earth