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anonymous stanford poster “Ill get downvoted but I just wanna make my parents proud, marry rich, and have private school babies with stanford legacy honestly” https://t.co/1ZEdPw2xEW
initially: “what about that life is even worth living then?” then: “wow, i really have some incredibly tight, narrow standards of judgment, don’t i” i can see the place from which it is meaningful now. just living a completely normal, absorbed life
i had a tweet i can’t find about how so many of my middle school friends had “made it” in that they had jobs at Goldman Sachs, were content having a nice apartment, going to parties every weekend, and raising kids i couldn’t understand it
i had to be exceptional / there had to be something more maybe there is for people like @Malcolm_Ocean and @visakanv who’ve reached a certain kind of abundance with themselves and their life and are able to look the the perch points over humanity’s cliff and see beyond
it really also throws Effective Altruism-type nerds in contrast who have a great enough heart to care about people halfway across the world and then *having felt bad about it* actually go and *do it*, donate 50% of their income, those mf’ers
growing up, i always had a strange relationship with ambition it always felt . . . foreign, somehow. but i didn’t think much of it i had to be exceptional. in that context, i was. i couldn’t imagine not being exceptional
if i tried to imagine a future where i just had a normal job and returned to a normal house with a normal spouse . . . it just did not compute. it didn’t exist it was a form of death, isn’t it? to be on a life path that you cannot even conceive of existing in it https://t.co/VHILy7ez2R
it’s feeling scarcity, because you really are feeling scarcity about something. something doesn’t feel enough. something bad will happen if we don't accomplish this—we MUST have this we can’t imagine our lives so much without it (this is the mini-death) https://t.co/GUKbbusTJN
what’s it like to conceive of existing normally? (scary) what’s it like integrate it more and more into the moments of my life? such that if and when and as i do build towards greater dominoes, it is less and less from place of desperation and more and more from a place of— https://t.co/aMifrsspxY
—“well . . . what else is there to do?” https://t.co/6Kx33r6rjh
people have built great things out of trauma and desperation i don’t think you get an elon musk out of people who spend time doing shadow work on LSD you get an elon musk out of just doing stuff it’s not a bad thing https://t.co/jhkZq7FOjS
postrationalism ~= recovering the right to exist https://t.co/jJre3T13ug
postpostrationalism ~= doing something with it, bestie! https://t.co/HR1Tsrjhrj
(or not. you have a right to exist, bestie! . . . but have checked out this cool thing called touching grass and building shit?) https://t.co/SdccGZQtuI
@AskYatharth you might like: https://t.co/KyAKBxrsJI
Childhood: me: I’m just a nerd others: fuck that... you’re special me: I’m special? Oh shit! Get a load of me! others: fuck you, you ain’t special me: huh. I’m guess I’m not special. That’s kind of a relief. anybody can do what I do! people: fuck you, you’re not normal me: https://t.co/Oo0zzKyI6q
@visakanv @AskYatharth I think I was trying to see over the cliff as a kid but it wasn't until I was about 20 and got introduce to some ideas that are isomorphic to Game B (framed as "collaborative cultures instead of coercive") that I actually had the viewpoint to see beyond humanity's leading edge