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“The anxiety of the movie is almost: the movie of my life sucks. If anyone were to be watching it right now, they would think I’m really lame.” https://t.co/ne1hQLOsBy
How do you express the sense of Judgment over your life that overcasts the Judgment you experience from others? https://t.co/KCzgjEWb72
How do you make the Judgment of others part of your calculus, and decide what you want to do about it, instead of making your Judgment part of the thing to fake/control to win against external Judgment? https://t.co/kVHHArfv5V
To effectively pretend to be a certain way, you have to really believe it, or be aware of it. This impedes any access you might have to how you actually feel. So you live in a fake world, a world “above”, and have no connection with the below. https://t.co/QJlEryFSzi
The problem is not the performance. Performance was always part of humanity. Performance is truth. The problem is there was no sense of what I would do if I did control everything. Then translate that to: I don’t have everything, but with what I have, what do I want to do?
“It’s time to stop performing, so he tries. He tries, but outside he just finds a sound stage where there's nothing but more lights and another audience. “Outside is gone, it's all inside.” And you can't get back inside yourself. https://t.co/fRyOAd1Dwo https://t.co/QNVBr38imO
Inside and outside are swapped. Because we invited other people’s gaze in—not just with social media; I mean with the evolution of damn empathy—whatever the direction that points to us: it now felt like outside. Outside wherever this performed inside was.
“You take shape through recognizing how you are different from others. But at the same time, it's true that other people make up parts of my heart!” “That's right, Shinji Ikari.” “So you finally figured it out?” “Idiot Shinji! Congrats, idiot Shinji!” https://t.co/Ztpnqdc3mU
I’ll still say things along the way. https://t.co/0kOuDlpe6L