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wtf are these search results? these aren’t people being embarrassed they’re people playing at being embarrassed is there a better image search website https://t.co/6XPk9tuBl6
they’re not even trying to be embarrassed. this isn’t what embarrassment looks like they’re trying to give back like this . . logo of embarrassment. a advertising-ready fetished emotionally-sanitised version, that is a simulcra of the original but the original has been forgotten
real embarrassment 𝘩𝘶𝘳𝘵𝘴 it hurts to even look at at real embarrassment is having the wind taken out of you. seeing something sincere & precious, get crushed something dies in embarrassment, man, a sort of will to sovereignty, & the part of us that knows that pain flinches https://t.co/Wyq8b6RQyW
im being overly narrowing maybe there’s a distinction to be made between *social* embarrassment (which is where you feel/express the embarrassment in a social situation) and *unmitigated personal* embarassment (the kind that makes you dissociate, and is maybe closer to shame)
we express social embarrassment all the time it’s a kind of handling our emotions as we go fluidly woven into the texture & fabric of other humans, an organic response, and processing of something natural, expressed in a social context embarrassed, annoyed, abashed https://t.co/KBvUeRNFWU
like it retreated inward so hard to a place other people couldn’t find, so they couldn’t hurt you — couldn’t kill off something important enough your body knew was important that kind of embarrassment is what feels “real” to me related words: humiliated, ashamed, crushed https://t.co/eFcD8Mqsvi
maybe that’s a big difference between nerds and normies. or socially integrated people vs isolated people one directs their emotional energy outside. causes external violence maybe. but it is resolved by and within the group. sense-making it outside the head https://t.co/JsLqB43rHH
the other directs their energy inwards. to inside their head. where they do all their processing. it’s where stuff feels space but often doesn’t allow for as clean resolution, and is difficult & confusing, to understand and resolve, because it’s not externally expressed https://t.co/mqwg9cFSXi
Normies do thinking and sense-making in a distributed way. They talk as a group and come to an individual sense of what they think. Nerds are the insane who try to do all their thinking in their own head. https://t.co/h3f2eWijKv https://t.co/7Q8ugiPYOR
still, back to the original search results, there’s a third kind of emotional expression still the 𝘴𝘪𝘮𝘶𝘭𝘤𝘳𝘢 emotion where it’s barely one anymore. it’s just the rotting remnants of one, turned into a legible symbol for others to know what you’re talking about https://t.co/VTKDMEMgm4
but emotionally dead — a WALL-E world https://t.co/12AEDnnLL0
each of these (1. socially-expressed 2. internally-expressed 3. simulcra) types of emotional expression have distinctly different images 1. you might find in most real pictures 2. is difficult, you really only see it in movie stills—stuff where something real really is happening
no, these are still terrible, wtf, my theory still applies “social” mortification vs “internal” mortification (vs simulcra mortification) https://t.co/DQ3hV7ppax
unless you have already accepted and integrated the nature of the simulcra world we live in and are at peace with it (that’s my goal) bashing simulcra = reactionary seeing things as they are = kinda cool, and points in the direction of a resilient earnestness
i think it really is painful any and all times we see any depictions of internally-directed expression, being crushed, and that’s why they are so rare they really do make you feel bad. no, not just a social kind of “aww, that’s terrible 😢” bad.
you can’t pass it off. you really do feel bad socially-directed expression evokes socially-directed empathy but internally-directed expression evokes its own internally-directed feeling of being crushed in us the pain in us that knows the pain of them