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there’s “““shadows””” 😌, then there’s shadows 😖😖🔫😞☠️ the fun shadows are things like kinks, or socially unsafe desires, that you can express while still letting it integrate & morph into your self-image the 😞☠️ shadows are shadows that completely wreck your self-image
you come to realise exactly how reliant on your self-image you are, to function you can’t function without it. it was your “character suit” how do you function from a place of where it was not there? https://t.co/yFQaT0UlYc
it’s that participation, in the mutual handing over of things, bits of justification, that sustains and props up the shared belief-reality and moral economies we are living in we have to keep proving to each other it exists in little ways. giving it legitimacy & acquired reality
you come to realise how much of a lie that self-image was your self-image of the kind of person who could never feel such things because: 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘦𝘭𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 😱 https://t.co/scxT64VH61
the mark of the second kind of shadow is 😞 the mark of the first kind of shadow is 😔 because with 😔, there is still a face there it is still a live, fully running human being personality suit with 😞, the face is dead there is nothing
with the first kind of shadow, there is still some juice to this kink 😈😱 it’s what makes it fun . . . and terrifying . . . and scary important the second kind of shadow is not fun. if you are having fun, it is not the second kind of shadow. it leaves you with no energy
it’s the exprence of coming back alive, from a place where my personality-suit was dead. it’s a place of dying and coming back. of building some modicum of trust & discovering 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘢𝘮 𝘪 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘪 𝘢𝘮 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘢𝘮 𝘪 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘪 𝘢𝘮 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 https://t.co/lZuID9swCH
then, of course, the ego reassembles, and this is good, for personality-suits are good for interacting with the world personality-suits make people happy. personality-suits are 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯 https://t.co/13hVNTog7w https://t.co/trsQdzS3CC
