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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• about 4 years ago

If I go about my day, doing my next activity I have to because I have to do it, I am alienated. Exhausted before I am done. Behind, already. Before I have begun.

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• about 4 years ago

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If I go about my day, doing the same activity with immense joy, and spaciousness . . . I am here. With things as they are. They take time. I am here, in time, now.

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• about 4 years ago

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Where was I before? Lost. In a world where doing and time didn’t exist. A world of Brain.

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• about 4 years ago

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Time was lost before. Now it is found. I exist in it.

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• about 4 years ago

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Time passes. Time takes time. I now allow for it.

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• about 4 years ago

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“still kinda pissed it takes *time* to do things” so it does we’re already always flowing through time and space

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• about 4 years ago

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I had a pain with doing before. With time. https://t.co/xEYWSsZVRC

yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• over 4 years ago

I had a pain with doing. If I was doing, it was wrong. Minimise doing. DRY. It hurt to do, and now I see how doing it the only thing that keeps me moving.

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• about 4 years ago

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It came from a background in computer science and math, where if you knew the answer . . . it happened immediately. And forever. It was land of no Doing. Things just existed abstractly, across time, at once. There was no time there. https://t.co/XFDzFx3DqT

yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• almost 5 years ago

@Malcolm_Ocean If suffering is mismatch between what is and should be, then I have suffered a lot, frustrated at expecting emails/tasks/work to just get done since I could so clearly see what I wanted done. It makes me wonder:

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• about 4 years ago

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Spaciousness is the space to take things with joy. It’s that extra flick of your lover as they brush down your side. Imperceptibly longer, maybe shorter. Yet, deeply erotic.

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• about 4 years ago

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It’s that same eroticism found in taking joy from activities. Imperceptily longer, maybe shorter. Here and there. They are done in a way they are enjoyed. Enjoyment comes from paying attention. https://t.co/ftfXWqKrNQ

yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• over 4 years ago

@praguyerrr likes to say: joy comes from paying attention. I wasn’t giving any, or I may have taken pleasure in my breath, or being alive, or any of the nice things around me. https://t.co/uk0B3k0L1e

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• about 4 years ago

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When we are hurried, we can neither trace our lover’s lines accordingly, or take joy. Because we don’t have the space for those imperceptible moments of joy and attention. We are hurried. https://t.co/0aOoMNYZ0y

yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• almost 5 years ago

Be not the hurried child. Be a friend. https://t.co/7ABmWLXPnn

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• about 4 years ago

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I seem to keep reinventing eroticised meditations. I’m sorry,, bud. I don’t make the rules. https://t.co/1sDZ9knNLL

yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• about 4 years ago

I present,, to you,, the core thesis of this account: horney fixes everything

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• about 4 years ago

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What’s funny is the original activity that prompted this thread was showering 🛁 It can be such a fun activity, yet that too, I could feel behind, and impatient already of. Absent before I’ve even begun. A scared child; told he will suffer if not all is done.

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• about 4 years ago

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After feeling into spaciousness mode, I just felt such joy and presence. Presence, like “here,” “in” my life. Sucked into being as is. All just is as it is. Receding into non-existence. Doing and non-doing. Experiencing.

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• about 4 years ago

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Sometimes all I can manage is macheting the space(iosness) around me, and not too much further than that. There is a lot to do, but the present moment can have spaciousness around it. https://t.co/GuORWEZInb

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