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Micro-phenemenology: *walking in park *sudden bout of suffering as I think about all the things I wanna do that I'm not doing *about to feel sad like a loser, panik *instead it feels like, wow, that makes sense, things are as they should be? * confus
* suffering still there, still not . . . how to put this, pleasant exactly, not what I want, but it doesn't feel wrong either *suffering itself feels like a constant jittering, like I keep finding the world in a way it is not how it is supposed to be
I feel so much gratitude—to be able to experience myself as unwhole and incomplete, and be continually guided as a human being non-naïvely to getting stuff done in the world—is so cool And I’m only able to say that because I am unbothered and with myself in a deep way.
As @egregirls says, it matters that one experienced happiness on the way, or some cessation and wholeness, to come back to what was there before with lightness and enjoyment. [Someone commented, “im too dumb to understand this 😞” and she replies:] https://t.co/yayhH0CjPy
The point of crazy giggly happy isn’t to stay crazy giggly happy. It’s to come back to everything else changed. https://t.co/2QVNEP70Bj