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I never thought this was possible, but you know how negative emotions, like anger or sadness, donāt have to be bad, and can be quite beautiful and ok? It feels like I'm experiencing suffering, and it is in its place too, I am unbothered by it.
Micro-phenemenology: *walking in park *sudden bout of suffering as I think about all the things I wanna do that I'm not doing *about to feel sad like a loser, panik *instead it feels like, wow, that makes sense, things are as they should be? * confus
* suffering still there, still not . . . how to put this, pleasant exactly, not what I want, but it doesn't feel wrong either *suffering itself feels like a constant jittering, like I keep finding the world in a way it is not how it is supposed to be
I feel so much gratitudeāto be able to experience myself as unwhole and incomplete, and be continually guided as a human being non-naĆÆvely to getting stuff done in the worldāis so cool And Iām only able to say that because I am unbothered and with myself in a deep way.
As @egregirls says, it matters that one experienced happiness on the way, or some cessation and wholeness, to come back to what was there before with lightness and enjoyment. [Someone commented, āim too dumb to understand this šā and she replies:] https://t.co/yayhH0CjPy
The point of crazy giggly happy isnāt to stay crazy giggly happy. Itās to come back to everything else changed. https://t.co/2QVNEP70Bj