@transkatgirl
a girl learning to navigate the world
đź“… Joined: 1/6/2015
🗄️ Archived: 10/27/2024
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instead of installing a proper mood tracking app i’m just going to make a thread where i plot how i’m feeling on this several times a day https://t.co/ON66r0CwUd
hot take: for *most* people, knowing your own IQ is an infohazard https://t.co/TOYsWvtElg
as someone who nearly implemented a QR code reader at one point: that’s not how it works lol https://t.co/cVEv3HBlvQ
@arithmoquine lmao it's real https://t.co/sRj8lYkw6v
what the fuck https://t.co/z577Rri05U https://t.co/9rZ5UQi34b
QR codes are just a barcode that contains some text. that’s it.that text could be a link, or it could be all sorts of other stuff (like a WiFi password, a contact card, a phone number, or anything else that can be done with a fucking barcode)
i used to rely on objects and places a lot for comfort.however, as i made plans to run away from my parents, i had to slowly mentally prepare myself to be okay with having fewer comfort objects. i could only bring what would fit inside my backpack.
currently thinking about how the main use cases for browser “incognito” windows are:- porn / weird sites- viewing content without affecting your recommendations - bypassing paywalls- trying to talk to the outside world while in an abusive environment
@boltooup god this reminds me of this post https://t.co/nnhtIW0KbA
going to try to mostly stay out of the tpot trans discourse, but i have one small thing to add:being forced to go through the wrong puberty is a horrible, traumatizing experience. listen to trans kids.here’s my own story, for anyone who would like to hear it:
here’s right now: https://t.co/FIIYcCJuhe
> tell mother that i’m overwhelmed and just need alone time> she won’t leave me alone> insist that i’m overwhelmed, it isn’t her fault, and i *need* her to leave me alone> she won’t leave me alonewell i guess i’m never coming back here
i think i’ll also include this version of the chart in the app https://t.co/mUMR6923lx
@xlavrity i'd say the issue is that a lot of people put way too much weight on it for a small proportion of people, this can be a good thing. for most people, this is a bad thing, as it causes you to underestimate what you're capable of.
very tired and comfy rni think i might do some reading and then fall asleepi feel very at ease and relaxed, and it’s nice~ https://t.co/JMxZYJaETh
oh, children’s videos on youtube are about to get fucking insane https://t.co/LFihh8QfU4
fuck it, here's an actually good version of this https://t.co/pcV5rHwJgg
everything feels blehi’m going to sleep now, i hope things will feel better in the morning https://t.co/xVkU8VwwXm
"hot" take: giving a shit about the downstream societal impacts of a feature in an app that a large proportion of the population uses is a good thing, actually https://t.co/RnXaYfJ9dV
well that’s good to know https://t.co/lZE52qLjCx
fuck you.honestly, sincerely, fuck you.don’t you understand this is what happens when you build something that destroys the commons?the commons that we all (yes, even including you) share? https://t.co/3ErHLq8ikl
update: mood tracking app just droppedhttps://t.co/JOgmzS8zhc https://t.co/1jZgoFOp2l https://t.co/7vjnyEMiw8
@nosilverv fuck it why not https://t.co/gJMbxXyT4W
RT @softminus: same https://t.co/CUDsq4JzOA
so i’ve been using the mood tracking app i made for like the past 2 days now, and i have to say, it’s kinda interestingi need to work on implementing more/better ways to graph the data https://t.co/BVqR187SSL
my mind immediately went to drugs before realizing how stupid that would be https://t.co/MmRWmFuRGu
after running away from my parents, i ended up in what would become an abusive relationship. i was really bpd and kept changing my mind on whether or not i wanted to be in the relationship, while my partner was really bpd as well and *needed* comfort that i wouldn't leave her.
they’re putting cheese on the blockchain https://t.co/EZkzZidgDV
i have to say, this is one of the weirdest twitter dms i've ever gotten https://t.co/oj0XhxOa4w
but, i hope this story at least shows that it's far more complicated than just "this drug is addictive, therefore it's bad".the kind of person who actively seeks out trying hard drugs likely isn't doing great. they likely have deep-rooted issues like i do.
god my amazon order history has to look super suslook, i’m planning a meetup with a cute transfem, okay? https://t.co/VCRoUoQXzK
oh i fucked up bad this time https://t.co/KY8AVZCTxD
fuck itfuck a girl you barely knowmix meth and caffeineblow $1k on dumb shitimpulsively travel across the USsleep for 4 hours at a timelisten to the same songs 20 times in a rowrun outside and feel the cold sting your skinsob and scream and laugh and dance https://t.co/QUarpMLdG2
i hope this provides a bit more context to those "i tried heroin and now i'm addicted to it" type of posts on the internet.i wouldn't recommend needlessly trying strong opioids, they are very addictive. but, in those types of stories, there's more than just the drug at play.
god i love it when the programming language i use has vibrator integrations https://t.co/PQL6oHjzfo
i eventually made up my mind that i wanted *out* of the relationship. but, my partner wouldn't accept this.she kept trying to convince me to stay. since i'd still be stuck living with her family, as i had no other option, i tried to keep this up for a bit longer.
okay i actually really like the ominous ones https://t.co/AmzRItraUZ
but, she wanted more and more to convince me not to leave.she wanted access to my passwords, and my passwords for my computer and phone.these were my comfort objects. giving her access to these felt like giving her access to my mind.
even before she had the remote access, she would adjust the settings on my devices to her liking. she didn't want the devices to be customized for *my* needs, she wanted everything to be shared, and customized to fit her.this deeply bothered me.
this is how i ended up relying on drugs for comfort. because i was traumatized out of every other source of comfort i could find, until this is all i had left.i don't blame the drug for this. if i *had* to blame someone, it would be the people who did this to me.
hot take: i think it’s possible to both understand that LLM outputs aren’t accurate depictions of their internal state **and** be freaked the fuck out by how the big AI labs are treating something that says it’s conscious and we can’t prove *isn’t* conscious
after i left that relationship, my partner realized what she did to me was deeply fucked up (there is a *lot* i didn't mention here!). i don't really care much about it now.but it deeply fucked up my ability to comfort myself, and i'm still undoing the damage to this day.
i was in a relationship i didn't want to be in, and my partner was taking away my only source of physical comfort.i talked about my discomfort with this on twitter and discord. but, my partner would eventually end up seeing this, which made things worse.
i decided to write about this after finishing up this threadhttps://t.co/aiNPgOsOkF
ever since i arrived, i would refuse to go anywhere without my packed backpack, which was essentially a "go-bag". my partner tried to convince me this was silly, but i absolutely fucking refused.i put more effort into making a better "go-bag", especially once i had a job.
she started checking my twitter regularly, and would make me go through my DMs every day to make sure i wasn't messaging other people about her.she originally did the same with my discord, but after i had enough "freak-outs", she took away my discord account entirely.
she didn't like how i'd spend a while browsing twitter on the toilet, so she took away my phone while i was on there, and only let me use hers. eventually, she wouldn't let me go anywhere without her, not even the bathroom.i was essentially cut off from the outside world.
that was an uncomfortable time. after a long conversation, i played along and promised her another chance. i guess this wasn't my first time dealing with an abusive living situation.but i was still planning on leaving. and one night, a week later, i succeeded.
so i met up with a cute girltwink i met off twitter dot cum, we cuddled a bunch, frotted, and then got some pizza togetherbut now i have to go back to my hotel and i’m just vibrating in my bus seat from how energetic i am aaaaaai think i might be a bit hypomanic lol
and, while all of this was happening, she would frequently get into arguments with her parents (which we were living with), and they would frequently threaten to kick us out.i was already a traumatized mess when i came there, and this made things so much worse.
i tried to make it look like this was just because i wanted nice things. in reality, i was planning to run away from my partner, while also trying to be prepared for being kicked out at basically any time.i eventually made this better "go-bag", and started planning to run away.
oh my god i love this https://t.co/cMxfFCY2gJ
god, i just remembered when i was in middle school, and did my fucking science fair project on tuning golang's net/http library for multi-core performance, because i started on it way too last-minute for my parents to take me to the store so that i could do a "normal" project