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@transkatgirl
a girl learning to navigate the world
Joined: 1/6/2015
Archived: 10/27/2024
55.3K Tweets
7.2K Followers
4.4K Following
310.0K Likes
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@transkatgirl
a girl learning to navigate the world
Joined: 1/6/2015
Archived: 10/27/2024
55.3K Tweets
7.2K Followers
4.4K Following
310.0K Likes
Downloads the complete Twitter archive in JSON format
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instead of installing a proper mood tracking app i’m just going to make a thread where i plot how i’m feeling on this several times a day https://t.co/ON66r0CwUd
hot take: for *most* people, knowing your own IQ is an infohazard https://t.co/TOYsWvtElg
as someone who nearly implemented a QR code reader at one point: that’s not how it works lol https://t.co/cVEv3HBlvQ
@arithmoquine lmao it's real https://t.co/sRj8lYkw6v
what the fuck https://t.co/z577Rri05U https://t.co/9rZ5UQi34b
earlier today, i told someone i was trans, and they thought i was a pre-everything FtM rather than MtF
"oh no i'm not a genius like everyone told me i was, because i only got an average score on this single test" shut up and start actually start doing things
oh my godhttps://t.co/ew1ebHerXq https://t.co/PNs5uxjcGH
everyone acts like they’re some sort of mythical creature, when they’re really just fucking text written in a manner that’s easily computer readable
QR codes are just a barcode that contains some text. that’s it.that text could be a link, or it could be all sorts of other stuff (like a WiFi password, a contact card, a phone number, or anything else that can be done with a fucking barcode)
i used to rely on objects and places a lot for comfort.however, as i made plans to run away from my parents, i had to slowly mentally prepare myself to be okay with having fewer comfort objects. i could only bring what would fit inside my backpack.
currently thinking about how the main use cases for browser “incognito” windows are:- porn / weird sites- viewing content without affecting your recommendations - bypassing paywalls- trying to talk to the outside world while in an abusive environment
(yes, i know QR codes can contain binary data as well.either way, you get the fucking point.)
@boltooup god this reminds me of this post https://t.co/nnhtIW0KbA
okay i think i just fell in love with a trans girl i met over the internet
need a cute girl to feed me random pills and make me guess what they are based on the effects
i should be fed an assortment of hallucinogens by a pretty girl and then locked in a dark, empty, windowless room, alone, for 12 hours
i just had a friend i’m meeting up with say “any sufficiently sterile knife play is indistinguishable from medfet”
pro tip: you can just hand-write an SVG file. nobody can stop you
okay this weekend i’m considering actually turning this into a (web) app
going to try to mostly stay out of the tpot trans discourse, but i have one small thing to add:being forced to go through the wrong puberty is a horrible, traumatizing experience. listen to trans kids.here’s my own story, for anyone who would like to hear it:
here’s right now: https://t.co/FIIYcCJuhe
> tell mother that i’m overwhelmed and just need alone time> she won’t leave me alone> insist that i’m overwhelmed, it isn’t her fault, and i *need* her to leave me alone> she won’t leave me alonewell i guess i’m never coming back here
i forget that estrogen has mild antipsychotic effects until i accidentally skip a dose
“can you wait outside the vape shop while i go in, you kinda look like a child and i don’t want them giving me shit for it.”
https://t.co/Tu6Rg2cj09
very tired and comfy rni think i might do some reading and then fall asleepi feel very at ease and relaxed, and it’s nice~ https://t.co/JMxZYJaETh
@xlavrity i'd say the issue is that a lot of people put way too much weight on it for a small proportion of people, this can be a good thing. for most people, this is a bad thing, as it causes you to underestimate what you're capable of.
i think i’ll also include this version of the chart in the app https://t.co/mUMR6923lx
oh, children’s videos on youtube are about to get fucking insane https://t.co/LFihh8QfU4
look, not everyone can have 99th percentile IQs, that’s literally just how statistics work
everything feels blehi’m going to sleep now, i hope things will feel better in the morning https://t.co/xVkU8VwwXm
"hot" take: giving a shit about the downstream societal impacts of a feature in an app that a large proportion of the population uses is a good thing, actually https://t.co/RnXaYfJ9dV
well that’s good to know https://t.co/lZE52qLjCx
so, my list of comfort objects was shrunk down to a phone, a laptop, and a stress toy i was given by my highschool's social worker (which i ended up forgetting about after a few moths, lol).
update: mood tracking app just droppedhttps://t.co/JOgmzS8zhc https://t.co/1jZgoFOp2l https://t.co/7vjnyEMiw8
@nosilverv fuck it why not https://t.co/gJMbxXyT4W
my mind immediately went to drugs before realizing how stupid that would be https://t.co/MmRWmFuRGu
after running away from my parents, i ended up in what would become an abusive relationship. i was really bpd and kept changing my mind on whether or not i wanted to be in the relationship, while my partner was really bpd as well and *needed* comfort that i wouldn't leave her.
so i’ve been using the mood tracking app i made for like the past 2 days now, and i have to say, it’s kinda interestingi need to work on implementing more/better ways to graph the data https://t.co/BVqR187SSL
i have to say, this is one of the weirdest twitter dms i've ever gotten https://t.co/oj0XhxOa4w
they’re putting cheese on the blockchain https://t.co/EZkzZidgDV
i fucking hate bpdi hate going between being deeply in love with someone and disgusted by themi hate not knowing if ending the relationship or hiding my negative feelings is the better option
currently at a meetup and being teased for having an IQ which is “only” +1SD
god my amazon order history has to look super suslook, i’m planning a meetup with a cute transfem, okay? https://t.co/VCRoUoQXzK
but, i hope this story at least shows that it's far more complicated than just "this drug is addictive, therefore it's bad".the kind of person who actively seeks out trying hard drugs likely isn't doing great. they likely have deep-rooted issues like i do.
holy shit, i drastically underestimated how helpful cuddling ismy pain and fatigue is basically gone now, and i feel way better mentally
@LinkofSunshine going to do this but recreationally instead
my partner slowly convinced me to make a joint bank account with her, which i eventually did.but, then things took a turn for the worse.
i hope this provides a bit more context to those "i tried heroin and now i'm addicted to it" type of posts on the internet.i wouldn't recommend needlessly trying strong opioids, they are very addictive. but, in those types of stories, there's more than just the drug at play.
oh i fucked up bad this time https://t.co/KY8AVZCTxD
i eventually made up my mind that i wanted *out* of the relationship. but, my partner wouldn't accept this.she kept trying to convince me to stay. since i'd still be stuck living with her family, as i had no other option, i tried to keep this up for a bit longer.
god i love it when the programming language i use has vibrator integrations https://t.co/PQL6oHjzfo
but, she wanted more and more to convince me not to leave.she wanted access to my passwords, and my passwords for my computer and phone.these were my comfort objects. giving her access to these felt like giving her access to my mind.
even before she had the remote access, she would adjust the settings on my devices to her liking. she didn't want the devices to be customized for *my* needs, she wanted everything to be shared, and customized to fit her.this deeply bothered me.
okay i actually really like the ominous ones https://t.co/AmzRItraUZ
i think i’ll accompany every one of these i post with a small little summary of how i’m feeling right now
rust really is the trans girl programming language, huh
this is how i ended up relying on drugs for comfort. because i was traumatized out of every other source of comfort i could find, until this is all i had left.i don't blame the drug for this. if i *had* to blame someone, it would be the people who did this to me.
after i left that relationship, my partner realized what she did to me was deeply fucked up (there is a *lot* i didn't mention here!). i don't really care much about it now.but it deeply fucked up my ability to comfort myself, and i'm still undoing the damage to this day.
she eventually got what she wanted, and slowly tried to ask for more and more.she wanted remote access to my devices as well. when she eventually got this, she would use it to play practical jokes on me.
i was in a relationship i didn't want to be in, and my partner was taking away my only source of physical comfort.i talked about my discomfort with this on twitter and discord. but, my partner would eventually end up seeing this, which made things worse.
ever since i arrived, i would refuse to go anywhere without my packed backpack, which was essentially a "go-bag". my partner tried to convince me this was silly, but i absolutely fucking refused.i put more effort into making a better "go-bag", especially once i had a job.
i decided to write about this after finishing up this threadhttps://t.co/aiNPgOsOkF
i'd like to fix this at some point. it's not ideal to be addicted to heroin for the rest of my life.
she started checking my twitter regularly, and would make me go through my DMs every day to make sure i wasn't messaging other people about her.she originally did the same with my discord, but after i had enough "freak-outs", she took away my discord account entirely.
she didn't like how i'd spend a while browsing twitter on the toilet, so she took away my phone while i was on there, and only let me use hers. eventually, she wouldn't let me go anywhere without her, not even the bathroom.i was essentially cut off from the outside world.
so i met up with a cute girltwink i met off twitter dot cum, we cuddled a bunch, frotted, and then got some pizza togetherbut now i have to go back to my hotel and i’m just vibrating in my bus seat from how energetic i am aaaaaai think i might be a bit hypomanic lol
that was an uncomfortable time. after a long conversation, i played along and promised her another chance. i guess this wasn't my first time dealing with an abusive living situation.but i was still planning on leaving. and one night, a week later, i succeeded.
and, while all of this was happening, she would frequently get into arguments with her parents (which we were living with), and they would frequently threaten to kick us out.i was already a traumatized mess when i came there, and this made things so much worse.
@GoodReddit are they tripping in an arts & crafts store?
“okay your scores on the subtests are all over the place but some of them are really high so i’ll cut you some slack”
i tried to make it look like this was just because i wanted nice things. in reality, i was planning to run away from my partner, while also trying to be prepared for being kicked out at basically any time.i eventually made this better "go-bag", and started planning to run away.
i did lots of planning, i did test runs while my partner was at work, and i made detailed plans on how i'd kick my partner out of all my accounts before she'd even know.
oh my god i love this https://t.co/cMxfFCY2gJ
i had to pack all my stuff, change all my passwords, and get through my (remote) work, and then leave, all without waking her up.i failed, and was caught with a packed bag, ready to leave.
and, after making a secret discord account that i would only login to while at work, i finally had a place to run *to*.one day, i tried to leap on my chance. but, there was one glaring issue: my partner didn't have work that day, and was home (albeit asleep).
@TerinosaurusRex standard deviation
god, i just remembered when i was in middle school, and did my fucking science fair project on tuning golang's net/http library for multi-core performance, because i started on it way too last-minute for my parents to take me to the store so that i could do a "normal" project
so, i found out it’s possible to have videos that change resolution mid-way through the video, and on desktop video players, it creates a really interesting effect https://t.co/Uk1qpuIKum
i'm not sure if i'm just really fucking lonely, but my compiler gently encouraging me to go to sleep would be really cute tbh https://t.co/FiBuRiKj5u
if you forgot everything you learned in high school: https://t.co/ajTAuiJgMA
i shouldn’t have had to do this. forcing your child to go through the wrong puberty is child abuse. denying your child access to lifesaving medicine is child abuse.
@boymoderology god 3.5in is cute
holy fuck that was terrifying.i am fine, and now much closer to home. https://t.co/2qAyupXjjx
we know this stuff works.like all medicine, it has it’s risks. but, in some reporting, these risks have been over exaggerated to push a political agenda.the medical consensus is that transitioning helps far more people than it harms.
politics isn’t a game. people’s lives are at stake here.
i took the leap of faith, and i was incredibly grateful i did.trans hormone therapy saved my life.
i ended up getting caught by my parents mere days after turning 18. that. plus a combination of other factors, led to me running away from my parents a month later.i sometimes wonder how different my life could have been if i had more accepting parents from the start.
i knew i was mentally a girl since i was 7. i tried to let my parents know this, but they ended up laughing me off.a few years later, when i was around 12, i started going through a male puberty, and this began one of the worst time periods of my life.
so i encountered one of these again while browsing through my meme folder https://t.co/IHX40ETGU7 https://t.co/pCOuIORBaX
> hear a bunch of bad things about a person> end up meeting up with them irl> oh fuck oh shit i think i have a crush on them
so my old discord account just got the username updateand it looks like “transkatgirl” is takenso this means two things:1. discord is reserving usernames based on current discordtags (my main account is transkatgirl#7004)2. some fucker decided to be an asshole
idc if i’m a drug addictit makes me happy, so leave me the fuck alone
god, i wanna recreate the cute heroin video with someone
i need a cute girl to feed me lsd once every week
i obtained the necessary medications outside of the medical system, through means that i will not discuss here.i was terrified, but my alternative was suicide.so, i did everything i possibly could, and hoped that, through some miracle, i would make it through this okay.