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kat@transkatgirl• almost 2 years ago

the usual advice is to not take psychedelics during acutely stressful periods of your lifei, of course, completely disregard that advice and then have to deal with the consequences of doing so

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kat@transkatgirl• almost 2 years ago

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anyways i think i've figured out one major reason i try to drive myself into psychosis on purpose: i wanted to end up stuck in delusion so that i don't have to face reality

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kat@transkatgirl• almost 2 years ago

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also, maybe taking a substance that brings out my inner child pretty much right before entering the most stressful and uncertain part of my life was kind of setting myself up for failure

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kat@transkatgirl• almost 2 years ago

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i don't want to give her heroin, i want to give her the stability and comfort she deservesi feel like a fucking failure

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kat@transkatgirl• almost 2 years ago

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i really want to fix thisi just don't know how

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kat@transkatgirl• almost 2 years ago

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like, i know what i needi need financial stability, i need housing stability, i need connection, i need to learn how to eat normal food again, i need to slowly taper myself off of opioids with kratombut i don't know how to get to that point

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kat@transkatgirl• almost 2 years ago

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i'm going to have to move out of where i'm currently living soon, and i don't have any fucking plans on where i'm going nextgoing back to my parents would essentially be mental suicide.

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kat@transkatgirl• almost 2 years ago

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if i might end up not even living in portland very soon, it feels kinda pointless to rush into trying to get a job, and i'm also not sure what i can even physically handlebut i'm also fucking broke and will barely make it through this month, let alone the next

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kat@transkatgirl• almost 2 years ago

Replying to @transkatgirl

i don't really have much of a solution besides "ask friends for help and hope that someone has a place i can stay".but i don't know who the fuck to ask. it feels like all my friends are struggling themselves and wouldn't have the resources to help me.

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kat@transkatgirl• almost 2 years ago

Replying to @transkatgirl

i'm trying my best to remain hopeful. i'm trying my best to do what i can to turn this around. i'm trying my best to not give up on myself.but it's so fucking hard, and i can barely keep myself motivated to even try.

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