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when i was younger, i really avoided the kind of people who talked about "colonialism" and "environmentalism" and such things. they were angry, wrote invective screeds, and they seemed to punish each other for minor deviations from their norm https://t.co/GfY6q55F3W
but without really interacting with those communities at all, ive found myself using a lot of the same words i find myself in greater sympathy for colonised people, for no other reason than they are people. it's nothing more complex
it's not political. it's not filling some void in my heart. it's not my attempt to cope with the atrocity of a tragedies for better or worse — i feel quite balanced and grounded in my everyday life, with my similar peers it's just an expanding of the sympathies of my heart
i just have... more room it leads me to concrete action in tiny ways https://t.co/PWUDwAgHN4
i say "for better or worse" because idk if this is better im not out there taking the most action some people did. they fought for the environment and for marginalised people. their efforts literally mattered. they helped save things, i didn't. that's fucking amazing
i find myself more in sympathy with nature, the trees and the earth i wish to protect them. not for any reason that feels political or even ethical this is gonna sound really dumb, but i just feel i am of them more https://t.co/sCyilYrctO
i don't think it's stupid, but i feel so stupid talking this way and that's kind of why i want to talk about it https://t.co/c2ymkzCpgU
when i say in sympathy with marginalised peoples-- i don't mean i had a political awakening. i didn't become more ethical i really just mean it felt like part of me settled into my body and i can sense and feel more in communion with people i meet on the street or mlised ppls
it's hard to describe but there's this tenseness-- that i felt before. that i sense particularly in america whenever anyone brings up anything about the "environment" or "marginalised people" i bet some of you feel it right now
for me, i felt quite literally tense on defence i was either on team them.... or bad? but like i couldn't be on team "they" authentically. at most intellectually it felt like giving over the keys or being a hostage. to a good cause, sure. a hostage to a good cause
i feel a bit less... need? to defend against such people they can say their invective screeds, i see they feel strongly. i really respect the gravity of their feeling. if something made them feel this way, it must be important https://t.co/DX1sXx5cfH
@dissproportion the canadian trucker thing definitely gave me pause. "what's so important to these people that they're disrupting others and their own lives so?" i don't endorse the protest, or the response to it, or the cause, necessarily, but it made a think
but i still have... access? to me i didn't like... disappear from the conversation https://t.co/fAnzqzPkP9
when my college ex used to yell at me i would like... disappear emotionally. im not "here" anymore. i'd try to agree with her: say she's right and im wrong but it wasn't really being there. for myself, or for her cause https://t.co/loreQDOIIY https://t.co/MAXUpsvETg
i guess what im saying is >i’m intimately, regularly aware how my life has “enough” in some ways (materially) and it's been leading me unexpectedly to a greater sense of participation and responsibility in the world https://t.co/gsCPNTaBce
i’m intimately, regularly aware how my life has “enough” in some ways (materially) (and in some ways i don’t— a lack of community and holding still keeps me back, the same way a 9–5 keeps people back for years, sometimes their whole life, staying in place)
@AskYatharth coupla riffs https://t.co/nf1IP9pFjh
@PropaneFitness Alice Miller: "Nationalism, racism, and fascism are in fact nothing other than ideological guises of the flight from painful, unconscious memories of endured contempt into dangerous, destructive disrespect for human life, glorified as a political program.”
@AskYatharth https://t.co/hn06gcFEI6
via @brianduffytweet "What we call mental illness is coerced contractual agreements" – Johan Nygren "We are all pre-programmed with a form of mental illness from the point we’re registered as citizens" "We needed a story to normalize coercion." https://t.co/9m1e9pNxsa https://t.co/1oFFu92HtZ
