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@RichDecibels first one: I just hung in there and refused to die out of spite 2nd one: left my circumstances, moved, got married, got a job, lots of journalling, got a great boss who was basically a therapist/coach 3rd one: overcorrected in 2, needed Alan watts wisdom + met twitter friends
@RichDecibels I had a psychotic break and broke out of the box I had trapped myself in https://t.co/T3QVm2OR70
@RichDecibels Finding people who were curious about arguing for and against different perspectives played a big role. It enabled me to be a skeptic to my skepticism, which then opened me up to non-naive hope. It also allowed me to riff on ideas that can be propped up by others.
@RichDecibels Mostly just allowing it to move through til natural momentum came and carried me into the next phase. Learned an immense amount each time. Helps not to treat it as something “bad,” the first episode sucked but the subsequent ability to take a meta pov and see how fascinating…
@RichDecibels It is helped. I’d add that meditation, time in nature, social meditation, and good friends helped. For reference I’ve had two real episodes of “my brain is chemically unable to be not-depressed” that lasted months and months, and otherwise periodic shorter term issues that
@RichDecibels Reconciling with the ideology that was destroying me: https://t.co/Ot52uIrxeJ
@RichDecibels the big thing for me is realizing "oh hey im depressed" and then ruthlessly doing things until no longer depressed just cognizance that i was in that state was a big contributor to getting out of it first time was the roughest, after that had a template
well partly what helped was that it wasn't necessarily what i was SUPPOSED to be doing like during grad school when i was depressed and messed up from a breakup with my first fiancee i started going on runs through downtown seattle while dodging aggressive homeless people at like 2am didnt help me make progress romantically or professionally but it did make me feel better. really got the blood up
@QiaochuYuan @RichDecibels ime cold actually makes running better (only up to a point but seattle doesnt reach that point) faster heat dissipation, actually lets you go much harder and it feels great once you've been going for a couple minutes
@QiaochuYuan @eigenrobot @RichDecibels Fr, Sean, wtf https://t.co/NvWAVIdn0f
@QiaochuYuan @eigenrobot @RichDecibels I think in my head, the kind of depression where ur capable of doing a ton of stuff means (1) you are subjectively suffering less OR (2) you are better equipped to escape from the depressionbut maybe that’s not how it works at all who knows
@RichDecibels that was when i was younger. i still get depressed now but only due to something difficult happening in my life, as opposed to seemingly at randomso getting un-depressed comes from "resolving" the difficult thing. which can still be time-consuming and complex