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sometimes i get in a state with people-pleasing that feels circular: i feel cramped, and not like myself. then i try to strategise, how to not be cramped. how to be me. i recognise being me is when people seem to like me. i want to hide the fact im trying so hard to not try
for all that strategising, none of it does as much as good as a peculiar shift in the quality of my feeling. it's something like this https://t.co/7E5TeL3fEn
Repeat after me, if you feel like it: Life is hard, and full of rejection and failure. But. I will never be the one to count myself out. I will never take up arms against myself. I will never be the one to sabotage me. I’m on my side and I root for me to succeed. https://t.co/Eo1Pk9g3et
that's… it… there's a quality to recognising after all is said and done, the person im going to be left with is me. not her. him. them. me. i am in my experience forever https://t.co/vGFRqolwtL
@AskYatharth Yeah, for me I had to learn that, efforting to try and be more myself was backwards. Finding the people and activities and domains where more of myself was effortlessly available is what I could attune to and grow towards
related general thing https://t.co/72xa0lytKR
some more threads on being left with ourselves at the end of the day https://t.co/69pvgW32H4
and this https://t.co/wYahB2Ik3n
i am a creature embedded in my life, other ppl r embedded in their lives sometimes there’s space for interaction & overlap, but it never really approaches 100% overlap. they always stay a different person. their feedback & how they feel about me always has a lot to do with them