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my language was hyperbolic, but it was nothing short of my experience. looking at her felt like a god. i couldn’t look straight. but that was nothing short of what i felt. it was the intensity and emotion, expressed as simply as i knew possible
i discovered, with a knowing that comes from within, that there was nothing she had that i didn’t also have https://t.co/2R8xa658oJ
my face began to adopt this more feral attitude that was always in my heart https://t.co/I05brfCqap
i knew it with a internality that seemed to reverberate. other people could see it too suddenly, it felt like i could be grant other people the emotional legitimacy they wished for themselves. it was like i had been handed the keys
i keep thinking about what @jessicamalonso said, that babies don’t know where to put their attention, they don’t know how the world works. maybe you get some idea of that from someone else. or you get a hint, and you follow that hint till you find the clue
i’m usually scared to be anything other than my unoffensive, unobjectionable self but i respected that woman so much, Lara, i didn’t hesitate a second to be like her i knew what i respected, and i knew i respected her
it was a beautiful year, i tweeted about it here https://t.co/L5tWbLYKxs
another thread from then https://t.co/KofajobFL4
it didn’t matter that my language was hyperbolic, or that it maybe was hiding a truer feeling of shame it only mattered that as clearly and best i could put it then, the language that resonated with me was “looking at her feels like looking at a god. i can’t quite look straight at her. i want to be like her”
>over the next six months, something began to change editor’s note: of course it did, i did the only thing we can: take a very real emotion, and state it as simply as i could, and follow its truth, as simply as i could
postscript: becoming a "moral equal" https://t.co/Yk1vcQLY3l
@AskYatharth For a few months at the end of my senior year in high school I dated somebody like this. My inferiority feelings were stratospheric (naturally leading to the thing ending) and my internal fallout from that dictated the course of my life massively since then.
people really be like https://t.co/kxCn2Cz1WX