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100% agree with this decisions felt super heavy stakes, even something like to buy a water bottle or not it sucked https://t.co/CeikpTkM59
My decision-making phenomenology used to be extremely fucky in a way that I expect to be shared between most rats: deciding was VERY HARD because one wrong decision might make EVERYTHING BAD FOREVER them. No slack at all. Just BIG BAD. This came out in multiple ways:
it’s one of those things thay makes me feel insane for having lived this way 24/7 a 100% of the time the way i did https://t.co/itZSXsAQqv
as a rat, naturally i deduced i was spending too much time on this but it didn’t help. it only turned the stakes even higher. i was actively fucking up each second now should i just decide now? this second? but i can’t! https://t.co/ZUyVzUWVIT