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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• almost 4 years ago

The thing is: the game of god doesn’t promise anything. https://t.co/UVAd4bJWfE

yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• almost 4 years ago

> So there is the game of god and the game of the devil. Yes. The game of god only understands what is done and not done. It only understands what is the call of the next thing to be done.

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• almost 4 years ago

Replying to @AskYatharth

The reason this matters is because I keep expecting/hoping I can negotiate some sort of deal, where 𝘢𝘵 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘵 I’ll be happy, at least I’ll be blah, so that— https://t.co/Yp8rz9Dh6s

yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• almost 4 years ago

It’s the dog being fed food, and dropping it to go fill the hole he dug and try to somehow apologise for it. What can the dog do? I don’t know. I think it starts by forgetting in moments about the hole and acting in that very second like the dog he wants to be. https://t.co/rgy14o7mBy

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• almost 4 years ago

Replying to @AskYatharth

at least I can bring over some reference point, so that 𝘐 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘐’𝘮 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨. Working from within the old frame. I want to sort of keep the system of references, so I can go back and win at them. https://t.co/6ooZRKUFgA

yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• almost 4 years ago

It’s referencelessness, it’s losing the system of references, it’s temporarily ununderstanding them. I cannot use the good to pay off the bad. https://t.co/0fxTiTjKEX

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• almost 4 years ago

Replying to @AskYatharth

The game of god gives no evidence of winning except for just that: the feeling that you are. And that feeling, you validate for yourself. That feeling, it only really feels possible to validate by yourself when you feel loved. https://t.co/4Fswhyrlyc

yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• about 4 years ago

It is tough to break free and actually just want to play the game. Maybe we need to address the unsafety we feel first, about being not loved or abandoned. Maybe it’s the felt resolution with that that lets one truly play the game.

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• almost 4 years ago

Replying to @AskYatharth

It’s both scary and exciting. That’s what lets it drop the system of references. https://t.co/ev4RXJ6SWr

yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• almost 4 years ago

It’s scary. But it’s also 𝘦𝘹𝘤𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨. It doesn’t deny either. Yes, it is scary. Yes, it’s also exciting, innit? [😳] What does the contradiction feel like? What does it feel like to be both scared and not? Feel unequipped and also not?

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• almost 4 years ago

Replying to @AskYatharth

I’m not obligated to do anything, yet I am held responsible. The causal chain between “I could take action X for result Y” isn’t denied. But I’m not obligated to do it either. The top-most value layer is missing. https://t.co/PsKmiktntM

yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• almost 4 years ago

It is seamless, it is benevolent, it makes me feel autonomous and magnanimous and kind and humble. It makes me feel humble in the face of the universe, but not obligated to anyone.

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• almost 4 years ago

Replying to @AskYatharth

In PCT terms, the top-most controller is missing/loosened. The whole system feels less tight. Not trying to make reality cohere to a very tight set of expectations. https://t.co/BbK7aRgxKI

yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• over 4 years ago

Where normies are fine just picking an action, neurotic nerds have a really strong expectation that the conflict shouldn’t be there, and there should be some sort of resolution. They’re so sensitive to internal expectation error they start whole Twitter communities about coercion

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• almost 4 years ago

Replying to @AskYatharth

It’s scary, and it’s exciting, to lose all references. https://t.co/jXeZfT2i6Z

yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• almost 4 years ago

It means temporarily dropping all references. And that’s scary to the people trying to control you. And therefore to me, because those people had become a part of me. But it’s also 𝘦𝘹𝘤𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨. https://t.co/ev4RXJ6SWr

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• almost 4 years ago

Replying to @AskYatharth

The playing-to-not-lose mind wants to hold on; the playing-to-win mind doesn’t understand them. https://t.co/NX5CZpvdmM

yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• almost 4 years ago

From the perspective of the playing-to-not-lose mind, I still want to be assured of something. From the perspective of the playing-to-win mind, it doesn’t have a concept of reference levels at all. https://t.co/Wh5lXe5Y5n

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yatharth ༺༒༻@AskYatharth• almost 4 years ago

Replying to @AskYatharth

keywords: game of god, guarantee, referenceless

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