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It is when we do that that we realise that the project, as defined, doesn’t feel so worth it anymore, when it is not the grandiose vaporware. That is something you are just going to have to deal with. https://t.co/L4xvEPblxL
Nothing feels worth to you when it is not grandiose vaporware. What now! Your motivational system comes to a halt. You acknowledge nothing happens, till you start to get a glimpse of something that does make it worth it. https://t.co/f1dncQ7hEj
And then you will have found meaning, because meaning is for it to feel worth doing. https://t.co/YDe9fNK44p
For me, it was finding the finite games embedded in an infinite game I found beautiful. The finite games by themselves didn’t feel worth it. I don’t need to survive. I may as well choose to die. https://t.co/gojNo0Zf8a
If I wake up at 8:30am: - I already feel guilty somehow If I wake up at 6:30am: - There’s no guilt; it’s too early for that. - I’m only driven by beauty. I felt my worrying mind activate like 60 seconds after I woke up today. It was so obvious. https://t.co/niWjHUj53d
This is why it is Not recommended for working professionals with a family and considered dangerous by society in general. Society does not care about your malaise and needs your current copes to continue coping as long as you can hold. https://t.co/dvlbFlo3xI