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self-consciousness is called so, because it’s when we become self-conscious of our lies, that we find ourselves . . suddenly unable to function https://t.co/qJ7TCtpg1J
there’s “““shadows””” 😌, then there’s shadows 😖😖🔫😞☠️ the fun shadows are things like kinks, or socially unsafe desires, that you can express while still letting it integrate & morph into your self-image the 😞☠️ shadows are shadows that completely wreck your self-image
but it’s not really the past, is it? because why would it have come up. it’s something worse. it’s the present. it’s all the stuff you usually filter out and don’t spend much time feeling and now all of a sudden you do, and well, it’s not very lovable, is it?
who wants to spend time with someone who it self-pitying and freaking out like that? you become self-conscious of something you weren’t supposed to become conscious of you see, you didn’t have the resources to deal with it being in your consciousness
this is why perceiving yourself is dangerous. it’s why mirrors are dangerous. it’s why people and political factions will freak the fuck out if you begin reflecting these kinds of truths back to them you are literally attacking them https://t.co/6TyfWIVDSF
there are two ways out the one right back—you turn around and promise to never come back or the way through. https://t.co/Svv2Z8IxxM
it’s the exprence of coming back alive, from a place where my personality-suit was dead. it’s a place of dying and coming back. of building some modicum of trust & discovering 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘢𝘮 𝘪 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘪 𝘢𝘮 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘢𝘮 𝘪 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘪 𝘢𝘮 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 https://t.co/lZuID9swCH
“through” isn’t even the right word though. it’s almost like just staying in one place, versus the constant running of the other place https://t.co/r4ijmlUcxC
you think shadow work is about “effort” and “ploughing ahead”, and to an extent it’s true—it uncovers more stuff but the integration of the stuff always ever only happens in moments of stillness they’re necessary https://t.co/qsBnu2vXwj
because stillness is non-reactivity. of letting the truth pass through you and being unchanged https://t.co/sYCK7zrdYi
else it becomes more drama: neuroses in response to neuroses looking for apologies still no great harm but hopefully met by stillness https://t.co/hOMRyALt0z