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lmao i can just ask people out and they’ll say yes https://t.co/9Lhm7LTq5Y
lmao i can just walk up to people when my brain wants to say something to them and say it https://t.co/i3VSDpOprf
importantly, i don’t think i can do this all the time there is a radiance, i have, a fierce charisma a kind of unyielding goodwill that doesn’t depend on anything else the guy is having a good time https://t.co/bQvSd313dp
a lot of the other times, i reject myself before they get to i have like this leaky energy that’s saying - “i wanna talk to you” but also - “you shouldn’t be talking to me” https://t.co/m4d68D6OlS
any connection i get from that point is still more strain, maybe a relief from samsara, but it doesn't touch my heart, because my heart is closed . . https://t.co/bVkWLw82KU
yeah! [even more confidently] yeah!!!, really!!! we don’t have to connect with people in a way that doesn’t feel good in a way that never felt that good what is called for in those situations is directing love inwards instead of outwards https://t.co/h5P1Y3p2we
i don't *care* about pleasing people that way anymore i want to please me! (and then them) this guy is Now having good time https://t.co/CjwY4LAOrU
there’s a very subtle point and a very sweet desire here from locked alt me (@AltYatharth) that he doesn’t want to interact with people or ask them out ~~ even if he thinks it's going to work, over the medium of text, or calls, where vibe is less felt~~ https://t.co/YOzA9KQfoC
if it's not honest that honest is: i really do like myself i really do like you i really do want you to say yes this really is my heart, and im okay with you saying no less think. more show https://t.co/e4rXhy9Lsf