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It’s because I connected with my inner sense of happiness, and my brain yells I LOVE YOU to me all the time, and I don’t feel covetous of happiness anymore; I have it. https://t.co/TrsmyxPR1v
This is me stretching my legs out and saying: I want no emotions to be off-limits. https://t.co/7DLFAQidGX
Rn, sadness feels unsafe to display. I worry you won’t like me as much. https://t.co/OKA1yHQEb3
@rosaclewis and @maybegray are two of my favourite people in the world, because they found their happy, but they didn’t lose their sadness either. https://t.co/Lt0aKQSucr https://t.co/y3e2QRi9jn
I contain multitudes, and I’m afraid if I say I’m sad, people won’t get the other thing. Like how when Rosa said she “God, I love being sad 💙😪,” someone replied “You alright?” https://t.co/KCfSyGPSSP
Am I just under-confident I am those things? No. It’s that the super-ego I inherited from my upbringing says if one is sad, something must be done about it. And I don’t want to do anything about it. I’m learning to tease apart my super-ego from my own ego.
super-ego ~= a part of you that forms as a child to regulate your behaviour and tell you what needs to be done to survive and be accepted ego ~= your own sense of self about how your actions connect to the goals you want [ego ain’t bad, you know]
this not a kind way to live 👇, and i don’t want to live that way anymore https://t.co/rawQtm8Or9
@ThisOlivier > Is this like… internally loving the you that suffers? Or how not resisting pain is itself a kind of release/spiritual experience? it’s more a — fuck, does it hurt, and alienate me, to feel i have to hide my sadness from the world . . . https://t.co/kVHHAqXUen
more on feeling at rest with happiness https://t.co/20YzSX1FwO
@ThisOlivier > the need for endless happiness, in that context, is an overreach, like trying to paper over the ‘other’ emotions yeah, I did stretch for happiness, and you know what? it was an authentic and sincere desire, and i got there (without substances), and it was beautiful
@AskYatharth @Tjdriii Negative emotions (fear, sadness, anger) aren’t “problems” - they move us through change. Meanwhile happiness, is a sign to keep doing what we’re doing. https://t.co/XgK545krFU
@AskYatharth @Tjdriii Actually maybe I should have linked this article. “You can learn to treat each emotion as a specific and necessary helper. This is so much healthier than treating some emotions as magical rewards, and other emotions as major problems.” https://t.co/ToZ1ZwJVpI
@AskYatharth @Tjdriii Also, in this photo, the pitfalls of leading with happiness. “I know things will work out if I just love everyone more and work harder!!” https://t.co/qgtRaR4NU6
@AskYatharth @Tjdriii Yay! That feels meaningful. I ain’t fully internalized it myself. I’m moving much more energy with each re-reading, living more life, returning, resonating with it on a deeper level. Shedding layers of the whole spectrum - anger, fear, sadness, happiness.