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Took me 10 minutes to grok. Then felt like the truest thing I've heard to where I am. https://t.co/NnlGBxHtsF

It’s weird to think I already am an agent. I act from a place of what matters. It’s so, so strange . . . like the actions I take exist. They take place in a real world happening now. Not LARPed elite institution land. https://t.co/9O4B3CxS5R


I really did live in a deferred meaning world, huh, where the people would evaluate me based on submitted pieces of paper, and it’s a world that continued indefinitely, from school to uni to beyond. There’s another world, that always existed, that I never, ever knew about.

Even as a kid, I lived in a heady, abstract world, where actions still didn’t feel real. Helping someone didn’t have the oomph of this was a real person, who was helped. Symbols, numbers, notions of good. That oomph is agentic reality.

It’s vulnerable to share this, vulnerable in the sense it really could hurt. To admit I have not known to live in a world with that oomph of it matters. But I’d rather be judged on growth than skill points I never had.

Does posting this have an oomph to it? Not quite. It’s starting to. This is already real. I feel I have waited all my life for this moment to step inside the house as people say, “Welcome.” Welcome to a world that feels real, and experiences and actions have that oomph to them

I’ll say this much: This is what drove me to the MPDG. The sense of spontaneity. The quirkiness. She wanted in such a way no one could possibly mistake any reason for it besides that she wanted it. https://t.co/uN9YBMcWva

Her desires felt real to me at the time in a way mine didn’t. This is why I do weird things sometimes. To know there’s a me there. We have to be true before we can be a bit usefully fake. https://t.co/roEL61HrcW

oh . . . some six months later, i finally realise why https://t.co/dnMi81MBvH

i finally realise why https://t.co/z16T2zvYKz

Does posting this have an oomph to it? Not quite. It’s starting to. This is already real. I feel I have waited all my life for this moment to step inside the house as people say, “Welcome.” Welcome to a world that feels real, and experiences and actions have that oomph to them

i truly didn’t have the oomph to my reality, and i did not know me as me i had to practice and learn and cultivate till i could be true https://t.co/jADZDMVsFE

