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currently i am ten days away from my self imposed limit that this is *january's* project, however i have ZERO desire to continue this proress. let's try to diagnose what the feelings im feeling are here. https://t.co/33cLsDGMg0
okay! now that the nap has been done i want to talk a bit about my plans for the upcoming month imma make a video game, because i want to. in specific imma try to recreate one of the kairosoft games that i so adore. https://t.co/1Fl7y1YXEx https://t.co/FuSN4qM3yT
the roadblock happened around day five of development, where i decided to say fuck it and followed a tutorial instead of doing my own exploratory process. https://t.co/tFAzLu2xt5
I👏SHOULD👏TRUST👏MY👏GUTS👏MORE deep inside i kinda knew that the moment i start "looking" for tutorials that can teach me everything that i need there would be a shift in mindset. it is no longer about the process. it is now about the outcome.
some part of this is *expectations* that happened after i told my mum about it and when i told her midway that i was shifting she went "why are you giving up now?" and that kinda pushed me back to the perfectionist mindset that i was trying to escape