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@Malcolm_Ocean huh sth clicked for me here in The Queen’s Gambit, she mentions she loved the board before she loved the pieces an entire world of just 64 squares. she feels safe in it. she can control it, dominate it. and it’s predictable, so if she gets hurt, she only has herself to blame
@Malcolm_Ocean If suffering is mismatch between what is and should be, then I have suffered a lot, frustrated at expecting emails/tasks/work to just get done since I could so clearly see what I wanted done. It makes me wonder:
@Malcolm_Ocean What are domains of operation where the opposite rules apply? Skills, activities, hobbies that teach the creed of *so what* you know the steps. What matters is doing I suspect these make for precisely the hobbies most relieving to programmer / left-brain / knowing = doing types
@Malcolm_Ocean Another question: What is worth doing even when you can imagine it fully and thoroughly? i.e, if you could experience a movie of doing it and its reward, what would you still do anyway? cf. Nietzsche’s eternal recurrence also a core protocol in nitya meditation
@Malcolm_Ocean Let me then fashion my entire life this way: Even when I know all the steps in plan, let me have it be I still enjoy each one for the doing of it Enjoy each draft of the email. The crafting and increased rapidity of it. Contemplate the dearth & wealth of life in moments between
@AskYatharth @Malcolm_Ocean Sometimes I confuse grief for suffering.It has felt possible of late to allow grief its space.And sometimes it's as simple as grieving for the vestige of scaffolding that has fulfilled its role in time. For the left hemisphere's innocent efforts to helpfully, earnestly frame.